2023-12-29

Friday, December 29

Phew boy - first time updating this in a long time. I don’t know what came over me, but I just lost all interest in maintaining this journal which was so important to me for so long.

The only thing I can really put it down to is that I feel like I’m stuck at the moment and can’t make progress anywhere, and I am too much of a bitch to make sure that I keep on keeping on with the plan. There is some abstract sense that the journey to what you want is a road filled with unknowns and despair, and this is maybe the first time I’m really beginning to experience this.

Anyway, I’ve decided today that I need to get back on the horse and stop fucking around like I have been. What this entails is:

• today I will finish off any of this remaining fusion work
• tomorrow I will do the blender 4.0 tutorial starting again
• I will clean up my digital presence that has been faltering.

With the new year approaching I’ve got some ideas of what I want to do, including having a shot at making my own digital products (2x ideas), my own clothing brand, and my own digital workspace for Azul Brillante. There is a lot of work in front of me, I just need to lock onto it and focus now.